Saturday, July 24, 2010
i just went blog hopping around just now
went to alethea's blog ^^
hahahaha
then i went to read her 2010 jan post. about people's impression of her.
smthing liddat luh!
then i felt,
like
HELL YEAH I THINK IM BEING HATED TOO
i mean'
teachers hate me, they think im some bad influence on their oh-so-perfect student
my friends think that its cool when i bully someone (okay that was WAYYYY back ! i don't do it anymore!)
people think that im some emo kid without a life and just living off my parent's money and stuff
BUT HELLO?!
YOU THINK I WANT TO BE THAT ERSON ?!
i hate it when people think of me as someone so..
i don't know
mean ?
yeah i know i owe LOTS of people apologies
im reallly sorry okay
if i've hurt you in anyway im really sorry !
you understand right?
ive like, changed sooo much since i was primary school
(yes i used to do my homework! I DO !)
and i realised that my primary school report book
all the teachers gave me snide comments about my attitude in class
saying im too boisterous and naughty
yeah. i know
i rmb i used to rub erasers until they have that little gross things and i'll throw it around the teacher's table. OKAY, IM SORRY !
(it was fun btw)
and when i was like p3
this girl she fell and i was just walking by
i helped her up
and my "so called" friends were all like, "celine what did you do ? why did you push her down ? you're mean!"
HELL YEAH IM MEAN
but seriously
when the FUCK did you FUCKING see me push that girl down ?
did NO FUCKING ONE see that i was HELPING HER UP ?!
IS MY FUCKING IMPRESSION THAT BAD ?
am i just another one of those STUPID BRAINLESS QUEEN BEES that MEAN people look up too ?
i never realised that
but thanks for waking me up.
so once again
thanks for teaching me such a lesson
i feel disappointed
not about yall
about me
i might not show it
but whenever you say stuff like you're bad influence, i do FEEL smthing
just like how YOU will be feeling
i'm really sorry for whatever ive done okay
and to my teachers,
i promise i will (try) finish all my hw :)
and to that teacher who's table got dirtied by me?
and to that teacher who's table got dirtied by me?
sorry, but you appreciate it right?
(it was pretty)
and anyway
erm
like, im sorry ?
to my parents too
ive been like REALLLY bitchy and attitude problem
SORRY OKAY.
and thanks to those people who actually UNDERSTOOD me :) really.
SO
now i shall throw away my MEAN attitude problem bitchy self
and replace it with the new and improved version of me
im sick and tired of all the "cool" people surrounding me and telling me HOW TO ACT
im me
i KNOW me
i UNDERSTAND me
i FEEL what i KNOW i FEEL i am suppose to be
to those people ive hurt,
i can't do anything to playback to that time
(i wouldn't want to. who wants to RETAKE psle ?!)
oh , and alethea, thanks :)
you're awesome :D
(hee i wanted to use orange but it stand out ALOT hahhhahah ! it will look weird! i used the nicest colour after orange anyway !)
okay, bye!